To you.

I love you, I wish I could tell you how much.
You mean the world to me.
You make my world worth living in.
"It's no fun being awake anymore."
I said that years ago.
When I'm with you, it's not true anymore.
It's been so long.

Since I was awake.

Even as I sit here I can't get you out of my head.
You're so amazing.
It's only a few weeks until I see you again.
I can't wait.
It'll be torture to stand next to you.
And not be able to say all the things I want to.

I love you so much.

I really would do anything for you.
I can't wait to tell my family about you.
They'll freak.
My grandparents will disown me, at first.
They'll come around.
Mom will love you after she talks to you.
And she will want to talk.
After they get to know you they'll love you as much as I do.

Believe me.

You have no idea how scary this is for me.
I've spent my entire life trying not to rock the boat.
And now I find myself here.
I can see you, me, Kacey and Jonathan all laughing about it over a drink.
About how the entire family's freaking over you.
It'll be wonderful.
I'll be so happy.

Is that strange?

I don't think so, if I'm with you I'll be happy.
I can imagine the entire night, us all drinking.
It'll be fun.
We'll spend the night laughing, telling stories.
I can't wait.
I'm not even going to tell my family that any thing's going on.
I'll just call my mom one day.
"Guess what? Chris proposed. I said yes."
Priceless.

I wish I could see her face.

We'll be "just friends" to her.
Until that day.
I'm so excited.
I'm so happy.

I love you so much.